Well it has been a good few weeks since my last lot of methotrexate due to daughter having chicken pox and myself being a high risk.

I’ve had a lot of ups and downs during these last 4 weeks without being on methotrexate.  Yes it had had advantages as I have been able to be more sociable in regards to consuming alcohol (not been on my strict 1 unit a week policy).  It has been nice not having to worry about feeling absolutely in agony the next day due to drinking alcohol but the effects it has had on my joints etc has shown me how dependant my body is on the medication.

Sometimes we feel we take medication and think it’s not doing anything for me or what is the point in taking it. But being off for 4 weeks had made me realise how much my joints hurt more daily along with the swelling in my hands and feet.

Doing the first injection was daunting and did make me feel nervous as I forgot how much it can hurt that little needle going straight in to your muscle and the medication injecting in to the muscle plus the after effect of a sore thigh. I suppose thats the good thing I inject into an area that is never seen by many so if it does bruise etc no one will hardly see it.

6 month review again next week to see how I am getting on with everything along with how I am coping with everything. I will admit it is very hard juggling full time work, being a mother and wife along with keeping a house but I do it day in day out to my best ability. My downside is the fact I constantly push myself when I am bad which results in me doing more damage but I am stubborn and it won’t change. I do keep getting told though that when I’m bad I have to take my foot off and relax so that I can recuperate and heal so that I can keep going.