Well what can I say…..

After attending mixed clinicians clinic the other week I have thought to myself this week “why have I not changed my medication to injection form before?” I’ve had 1 injection this week of methotrexate and I have to say I am not feeling half the side effects I did when I was on the tablet form. Yes my dosage is lower at the moment and building back up but not feeling like crap and nausea the day after taking the medication is a relief. My job on a Monday and Friday is to check people into a holiday village resort and that is sometimes a struggle being up and down for entire shift so stomach gets shaken about which resulted in nausea but yesterday was a new Story!  I got to half way through my shift and realised I had not taken any sickness tablets to help me through the day, which then had me thinking that the nausea effect was easing. To even have a colleague comment that you look a lot brighter today makes you feel happy within 😀

We all feel the same with being on methotrexate and having a silent illness because you do feel there is not a person who understands what you are going through. People can ask how you feel and if everything is alright but st the end of the day a person with a silent illness puts on a brave face and hides how they truly feel. You might be feeling really crap and not wanting to do anything but you know deep down you have to just get on with life and not let the illness get the better of you.

I’m a full time mum to a nearly 2 year old and I work 40 hours a week plus I am juggling my illness so now and again it does get a little too much and I feel just want to get away from it all. But I know after going through pre eclampsia at 28 weeks with my daughter along with my husband who is my rock with everything, I would not be the person I am today. I am a fighter who will not let my illness get the better of me, I will try anything and everything to help me with day to day life.

As a family we have invested in a caravan so that we can have cheap holidays away which results in quality time together. It isn’t a spectacular, top of range caravan but it is a cute, little caravan which will give us memorable holidays.